The beginning of our new life..

I wanted to start a Journal but I have been horrible. And horribly tired.

So the update is that we are pregnant with Twins!!! Right now I am 10w4d along and they are doing great. I am already showing which is okay with me because of how long it took us to get here. We are starting to get all our ducks in a row. At least as much as possible.

We were looking into buying a bigger house but I think that it is most important to have all our family close. So we will just start moving stuff out of our 1100 sq ft house and move it either bye-bye or to storage for now. We are going to try and do a project every weekend. It might take us between now and then to get them all done!

I have been fairly lucky when it comes to morning sickness. Only 2x and it was late in the day. I get all day and all night heartburn which is gross but I am not hanging over the porcelain commode so I feel pretty good about that.

The only complaint I have right now is when people find out, they want to touch my stomach. They have never wanted to come that close before and I haven't let them. Why do they think that now is the time? I know it sounds like I am being a Beeooo...well you get the point but I am a pretty non-touchy-feely kind of person. I don't mine DH touching me, but I like my space. Anyone else want to kick shins of people who come up and touch your belly? I am hoping it is just pregnancy hormones...

WOW, time does funny things.

Again, I hadn't posted in awhile. I need to be better at this. Still makes me cry to read the other posts. I keep wanting to start that journal again. Here I am, pregnant for a 3rd time and absolutely terrified. I keep trying because the one thing that I want more than anything is have a baby. A piece of DH and I.

So we did a fresh IVF cycle on the 30th. (Frozen cycle ended in m/c at 7 weeks.) I know that I am pregnant. I haven't peed on a stick and my beta isn't until Saturday, but I know. It isn't the problem getting pregnant, just staying that way.

The biggest difference this time is I have more faith. More faith in God, more faith in my doctors, just more. I started to go to church about 3 months ago before we started the process again. It gives me peace to know that it is all in His hands. It's still terrifying though.

I just want to be able to enjoy my entire pregnancy.