Sunday, November 9, 2008

New Beginning

We start with our first frozen IVF cycle next week. This one is supposed to be a lot easier on the body.

Here is the one thing that I wonder. Okay, I hope and pray with everything that I have that this works. So, if it does...can I enjoy the pregnancy? I just wonder if I will always be wondering if each kick or movement or cramp, pain or spot will be the one time.

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

Getting through the fear

I went to the doctor again on Monday. I still have not had a full period. So they are putting me on stronger meds to force one. I go back in two weeks either way.

He cleared us to try again. We have one frozen embie so I pray that it makes it to thawing when we are ready. My sister has also agreed to be a donor of her eggs. It makes me so happy and so sad at the same time that she is so willing to do that for me. I hope she realizes how tough it is. But she did say that she already knows how rewarding it is because she already has two of her own.

I just need to find the strength within to get up every day and keep moving.